It Needed To Be Said
by Trekker
Look, Blair, Ill Im saying is this Sid guy doesnt have a leg to stand on here. I heard your first conversation with him, it was recorded, all incoming calls to the station are recorded. You said all the right things. Theres *evidence*.
Jim, just drop it.
My Dads got a good lawyer-
I dont want his money, Jim.
Its not the money! Its the principle! He walked all over you, he violated every legal right you have- hes totally at fault, here!
Well, fuck, Jim. So nice of you to realize that NOW, you piece of shit.
Blair? Blair, where the hell are you-
Out. Just leave me alone. Thats what you wanted, right? No more Sandburg. Well, ok, buddy, Im gone.
~~ Cascade Waterfront Park ~~
Hey. Um. I thought you might want your jacket. Its kind of chilly out.
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Uh. Look, Blair, Im really sorry. I was out of line there-
How the hell did you find out about that phone call anyway?
Oh. Well, I remembered you got a call that day, and I checked the phone records for any calls from New York.
Ah. Right. You do have your moments.
Well, thats how I made Detective, you know.
Right...
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Blair... Im sorry.
For what?
Well... for what happened. You know. Everything.
What specifically are you sorry about?
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Come on, you can do better than that.
Im... sorry that your dissertation didnt work out. I know how important it-
Jim, I dont need any more bullshit right now, thanks. You hated my dissertation. Try again.
What is this, some sort of guessing game? What the hell do you want me to say, Chief? Ill say it.
Jim, if I have to tell you, then I might as well just leave now, ok?
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All right, fine. Im sorry I was such a selfish asshole these past few days.
Not bad... youre definitely getting warmer. Oh, and you left out childish, by the way.
What?
Youve been a childish, selfish asshole the past three days. Come on, Jim, FIVE-year-olds dont speak to each other. Most mature adults are past that stage by the time they reach your age.
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Well, I guess I deserved that.
Keep going. You still havent got it, yet.
Got what, Chief?
What you should damn well be apologizing for.
Oh.
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Its the cop thing, isnt it?
What?
I mean, I know we kind of sprung that on you. The detective badge, that is... you dont have to do it, if you dont want to... I mean, I want you to, I just dont want-
Jim.
Yeah?
I want to be a cop, ok? I mean, the number one most annoying phrase Ive heard these past four years is Youre not a cop, Sandburg! God, did that ever get old.
Oh.
Jim... remember what you said, about a year ago, when you found out about Alex? You said you needed a partner you could trust. Well, guess what. I need a partner who trusts me.
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Shit.
I mean, I know that this isnt easy for you, ok? I know youve been hurt by... well, pretty much everyone you ever cared about. But you have to believe me, here. Im not going to hurt you.
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And it was NEVER about the dissertation. Never. Not since the day you came into my office. See, Jim, Im a scientist. And theres this common misconception about scientists out there in our culture that says that all scientists care about is their research. And sometimes, thats true. But usually, a true scientist, he doesnt give a shit about his research. He does research because he loves what hes *researching*. Jim, look, Im not going to lie and say that I didnt lose anything when I gave up my chance to publish, but you know what hurt the most? What hurt the most was telling the world that you didnt exist... denouncing the fact that you are one damn special human being. You are still my holy grail, you will always be my holy grail, even if I never publish, even if I never write a paper again.
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And youre so much more than that, man.
Hell, Ive never stayed in one place this long before in my life. You know, it used to be my future was this blank slate, endless possibilities, you know? But now, now every time I think of my future, I cant imagine a time without you in it-
And thats not a bad thing! I mean, I always liked the whole endless possibilities thing... but theres something about-
Well, look at it this way, its like, like breathing. Like, unconscious. I just assume youll be there. Actually, breathing isnt even the best analogy, its more like your heart beating. You know, no one ever says I beat my heart that would just sound dumb, you know? Because you dont make your heart beat, it just does. I mean, you could hold your breath for awhile or something, but you cant stop your heart. Well, I... I cant stop...
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Stop what?
Needing you. Being with you. Loving you.
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Im sorry I didnt trust you.
Yeah. You should be.
Nutcase.
Thanks.
Blair I... I... that is... ah, screw it.
Screw wha- umph
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Whew. Way to express yourself nonverbally there, man. Got anything else to say?
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Oh, yeah. Take me, you genetic throwback to a precivilized breed of man!
The End
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